My job has been exceptionally vulnerable lately, as in, a quarter million dollars was taken out of our budget with no warning. So, you can probably imagine I’ve been feeling stressed out. For shits and giggles, I pulled a book off the shelf and concentrated on my question: “What should I do about my job?”
I closed my eyes, flipped through the book (which just so happened to be Regardie’s Tree of Life) and my finger landed, not on a word or sentence, but upon a full-page illustration of Anubis. The God of the Dead.
HA! I couldn’t help it — I laughed at the Universe’s blunt response. But after reflection, it fit. My job has been “dying” for quite a while now. I’ve been “dying” of boredom and feeling trapped. Perhaps it is time to get out? On my own terms? Perhaps become a funeral director?
Oh, Universe, you scamp!
I am here, gentle readers. I have just been up to my eyeballs in Life. A good thing for me, a bad thing for this blog.
News: I am embarking on a 13 week course of training in wicca with a local group. The lessons are free and I’ll be sure to blog about how they go here. I don’t know if I want to necessarily be wiccan, but it will be nice to be back in a class with other pagans again. I am grateful for that.
The Pagan Newswire Collective did a series of interviews and live recordings from the recent Pagan Spirit Gathering in June. These amazing 5 podcasts you get to hear all kinds of amazing things from amazing people. Big shout-out to Dave of PCP and Star Foster (and everyone else who helped) for all their hard work! I thoroughly enjoyed listening to this series. So much, in fact, I may just have to head up to Camp Zoe next summer myself!
Jeffrey, over at Old Ways, does semimonthly classes on a variety of topics. He’s really quite amazing. The classes are all great and inspiring, but every so often he does a class that just hits me with a whammy and gets me thinking. His most recent class is “Surviving Empathy.” His point is if we stop reacting to the world and start responding instead, we keep our power and we manifest love instead of fear. We need to let go of Read the rest of this entry »
I was at a workshop out of town last Friday. We had a long lunch so I went to the local Barnes & Noble to browse. I found all kinds of cool stuff, but decided to buy a few sale books I’ve been looking for and a copy of the latest issue of Sage Woman magazine.
It was getting near the time I needed to return to my workshop, so I got into line behind two people. The cashier was this blond guy with glasses. I could only really see his head. The little old lady that was being checked-out was having trouble with her credit card or something, so the line wasn’t moving. Finally she Read the rest of this entry »
Being female in a patriarchal society tends to make us question ourselves and our power more often than our male counterparts. This is not a rant against men, just an observation on life as it is here in these United States. Even I, a well-educated and self-assured person have moments (even periods) of doubt, self-loathing, and existential angst. I say [ridiculous] things to myself like, “I can’t manifest my will,” or “[It] won’t work, so why bother.”
Self-defeat is one of the more useless acts that stands in the way of becoming a powerful witch. (Laziness is another.) I did a working back in October that Read the rest of this entry »
I am really feeling connected today! I attended a thank-you brunch for volunteers at a local church this morning. I am not a member, obviously, but I assist them in their library. There were 100 or so people in the room and the gratitude there was palpable. Lots of “volunteer love” was floating around the place. I really enjoy giving my time and talents there…their kindness makes it easy to volunteer.
When I returned to the office, I saw a box of used binders on the loading dock that were going to the landfill. Among them was a 3-inch 3-ring binder! Just what I’ve been looking for lately for my new BOS. And to think, I almost spent $8.50 on one just the other day. The Universe really does give you what you need when you need it!
Oh, and one more thing: I sent a check to the IRS yesterday with my tax return. I found out last night that I qualify for a program called Making Work Pay which will give me $400. So now I’m going to file an amended return and the government will give $ back to me!
I love it when a spell comes together! Thank you, Universe! Thank you Dark Goddess!